Life Going On

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
‘Til they’re before your eyes

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

- “The Call” by Regina Spektor

This song really sums up things for me right now. There is this feeling inside me – I can’t explain it. A sense of saying hello and goodbye at the same time. And sometimes, I am frightened by what the future holds. I know, I know… if you go with God it should be all good… And there is security in knowing that He will be there to uphold you… But.

But. There is a natural human tendency to hold onto the comfortable and the familiar… And I am one of those types who loves things to be the same for a long time.

“Nothing will change, Jo.” Laurie said to Jo in Little Women… but Jo and most of us realize that things DO change. And I must stay positive in the face of this.

So change. Change means also admitting that yes, Summer is basically here. And summer being here – means wearing more skirts and shorts and lighter clothing. And that also means shaving my legs. So in a spastic OCD moment, I did. (shave my legs, that is) I hope that in the weeks to come I’ll have more of those spastic moments and get with the program – and admit that, yes, life is moving on – and let’s enjoy it while it lasts.